This is Part 2 of our story, head on over to read Part 1 of How TFF started and where we are at today.
Today our life looks very different from most families. My husband is home almost everyday, we teach the kids together, I blog often from a small table at Starbucks, we’re able to go on field trips with the kids together, and we can split most of the household chores evenly. I’ll be honest, my worried self wonders why. Why are we experiencing these blessings. The pessimistic person in me wonders “what big life changing event is coming just around the corner.” Are we being prepared for something? Sometimes it feels like a blessing and other times it feels a bit like this…
Heart wrenching struggles…
I long for a “normal” life – at times. If you could peak into our home in my weakest points you’ll find me on the couch crying my eyes out just begging God to give us just a little bit of “normal”. I miss the consistency of a 9-5 salaried job, the one that (even at a high price) gave us full medical and nights and weekends off. Thecomments I get like “If only we had it as easy as you” really sting especially when just the night before I was up until 2am working because I took the day off to spend with the kids. Back to the couch, you’ll find me saying ” I wish I could know that at the end of the month we’ll definitely be able to pay our bills” then you’ll find my husband for the 100th time asking me “When have we not been able to pay them? Name just one time when God didn’t do as He promised.“ He’s right God is faithful and will always be. It’s about time that I start to trust, it’s not like He hasn’t had a chance to prove Himself.
Back to the couch again, you’ll find me saying “I wish I could JUST BE A MOM!” Forget all this coupon stuff, just give me back my lazy days with the kids. Take my to-do list and throw it out the window! Then I’m reminded that through my blurry tear filled eyes I simply can’t see the blessings at the time. – I DO have those lazy days and we’re right where God wants our family right now. I absolutely LOVE what I’m doing here on TFF – I wish I could convey to you how blessed I feel when I read the emails you send in sharing how different your family’s life is because you’ve learned these money saving tips. Knowing we’re right in the center of God’s will is a beautiful thing.
It’s time to embrace the blessings…
It’s taken me up until just the past couple of months to realize that THIS is our new “normal”. We are very blessed and I have come to the point where I can thank God for the blessings rather than wish for something a bit more “normal”. Blogging didn’t make any top 10 career choices list in 2010, it’s clear in the blank stares I get when I say “We blog” in response to “What does your husband do for a living?” In fact my own parents don’t get it. But it is OUR normal.
From me to you…
When you’re living a life of faith, even as weak as I have been, you WILL be ok. It’s a pretty well calculated risk when you’re depending on God’s promises. He is ever faithful and when He says something He means it, period.
I purposefully made a Part 2 to this story so that I could show you the raw truth of faith. I wanted to show you the struggles faith brings and what living a “different” type of life (financially and personally) can look like. Dave Ramsey says “LIVE like no one else so that later you can LIVE like no one else.” Financially that means doing things today with your money like the Envelope Budget System and implementing the tips in the Online Coupon Class so that later you can enjoy the fruits of your efforts. It can also mean setting yourself apart as a child of God so that later you can enjoy the RICH blessing of eternal life.
What do you dream about doing with your life? Where would you love to see your family at in 5, 10, or 15 years? What are you doing to accomplish those dreams? I can remember literally feeling like the way were living was the way life was going to be forever – like a hampster in a wheel. Several years ago I remember waking up in the middle of the night feeling so desperate and thinking this is it – we’ll never get out from under this debt. The truth is that there is freedom and nothing in life is permanent, and the things that are can appear vastly different if you choose to have a different outlook on life.
When we first started on this journey, we received questions like this from people very close to us…
Surely God would tell you where to go next BEFORE he asks you to step out in Faith, wouldn’t He? Surely He would want you to have a plan in place first, right? Surely, you are rushing into this. You have bills. You have children. What are you going to do?!
Our response was and is to this day…
God has told us to step out in faith.
God has told us to depend on Him.
God has promised to provide for our needs.
God has blessed us with a peace that surpasses all understanding.
That is all we know, and so we go.
I’m choosing to embrace our new normal. Is there a new normal around the corner for your family?